USELESS!

I FEEL SO USELESS!!!

argh!!!!!!

will tomolo be a better day!???

shit...........!

 Being Botak

( 2.24pm) .....

Tomorrow is my enlistment day... time flies realli fast... i am goin to cut botak before i go in.. becoz i heard the way they cut our hair inside.. is like trimming grass.. not givng much a damn about it...

but i kept looking into the mirror... so unwilling to step out of my house to go for the hair cut... in my whole life, i have never been botak before...

its only when i am goin for a botak cut.. then i noe how precious hair is.. LOL!!

ok... i dun care liao.. i am goin out now for the haircut... will be back later to update.. i guess i would look pathetically ugly.. lol

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(8.54pm)  I cut botak already... not handsome but also not ugly....

aww... i gonna miss so many ppl out there... Minghui told me she will miss me so much.. until she told me she is on the verge of crying... damn touched...

i guess its realli not easy to adapt to army initially... but i will try my best... hope i will stay optimistic and enjoy my army life inside.. haiz... tats it!... peeps.. i love u all!...

All my friends out there.. take care too!... ppl like Gean... Linghui.. Lihua... Sr...Wt...Mh...etc.... Will update ur wif my army life!.. Haha... enjoy life in singapore k... and i shall enjoy mine at Tekong.. LOL!

Adios!

  A*mei Performance

A*mei perform at the Feng Sheng Bang concert on Saturday live in taiwan.. but it didnt came out live in SCV!... the first airing will be on the 9 Sept... =( i am already in the army.. and i will miss it.. sad...

i heard her performance was damn high.... manage to get a few pics of wat she wore..

Nice outfit....

3 more days!... and i will be gone for 2 weeks!

i went jogging just now for 17 minutes!.. break record. haha... i cant believe i can run that long... will be goin swimming again on tuesday... God.. after i master breaststroke.. i feel swimming is cool.. last time swimming one lap is like hell.. coz my technique is all wrong... now.. i can do it without much difficulty.. hehex!

 4 more days

Time really flies... i remembered the last paper during my poly days... i remembered the times i went through during my final year project.. the times i went through when i worked part time as a promoter...

and now.. 4 more days... i am officially a soldier... i am excited but at the same time worry... haha... i wonder wats it gonna be like in army... everyone shared their experiences... but u wont noe it until u urself experience it...

Come to think of it... i will miss my freedom after i go in... seems like during the 3 months.. the onli break i have is weekends...

i gotta miss my SCV... Kang Xi Lai Le... my Taiwan variety shows.... i will miss my computer... i will miss my hi-fi set... i will miss my piano.... lots of stuffs.. that i can onli touch on weekends...

I do really hope my headache will quickly recover.. as its still in a quite hectic condition... because this headache is stopping a lot of my activities...

I dunno whether i will miss my family... although many ppl say " u will miss ur family during the day of enlistment"..

i am goin to bring a notebook in... so that i can pen my blog in the book everyday... and come back on weekends to update it...

and yea.. i will miss my blog too... this blog is like my rubbish dump... i throw all sorts of my feelings in here... be t be good or bad....

but most imptly.. i will miss my friends too... Haha... like linghui la... minghui la... lihua.. cynthia la... Sr la.. and that geannie pig...and not forgetting ah ma yixian...jh.. and etc...

i dunno if my weekends i can realli go out chill next time.. becoz partly.. i will be teaching piano on weekends... but seriously.. i look forward to myself losing 10kg inside.. God... it muz be damn cool to slim down sia... but there will be price to pay for a perfect figure... physical training and torture.. haha...

hope my determination and mental strength will be strong... 4 days left... gonna enjoy it to the fullest... ! any friends who wanna meet me up b4 i go in.. quickly let me noe k.. LOL! so bu yao lian.. hahaha

Helpless

I went to NUH on wednesday for doctor consultation on my headache... even went to have a brain scan... my left neck is actually causing the headache... so need to go for physiotherapy... hai.. damn pathetic la...

and the worse is.. no money ... no parents there for me... until i got to borrow money from a friend's mother...

when the brain scan needs parental consent... both parents said they were not free to come down to the hospital... i almost broke down.. but eventually my dad still came...

dun wanna say so much... i am juz purely helpless and disappointed wif my life... No one is there for me... fuck man... i realli hate this kinda feeling...